Music.
Too many kids these days are playing music for the wrong reasons. Being in a band isn’t fucking cool. Playing an instrument doesn’t get you sex. It seems as though some scenes operate like a high school full of a bunch of twats. The “scene” isn’t supposed to be a fucking popularity contest. No one “makes it big” anymore, so stop trying. Instead, focus on your music - Not the way you look, not the way you talk, not the way you act. I think that part of the reason “bands” continue writing shitty music is because they don’t, in fact, give a shit about their music. They just want to look cool or have someone else think they look cool or whatever the hell it may be.
Wanna know why I play music? It has nothing to do with what other people think about me, or my music. In fact, I couldn’t care less if I wrote a song and NOBODY but myself ever heard it. Why? Because I don’t give a shit about you, or what you think of me and my music. I write and play music for me. Music is my escape from reality. It is my release. And really, music is my fucking girlfriend. Don’t get me wrong, I love playing in front of people and I love every second playing with my best friends that I write music with, but I’ll be damned if I ever write a song with the thought of trying to impress people or make them think a certain way about me or the group that I’m in.
Music is supposed to be an art. Any asshole that writes a song with the intent of making money off of it isn’t a true musician and isn’t really writing music. All those fucktards are doing is recycling shitty music to try and be the “next big thing”. All of those poor excuses for musicians are ruining the future of what it means to be a musician. Of course I realize that some people enjoy their shitty music which makes this whole bitchfest subjective, but this is my opinion, so deal with it.
Why do I write music?
Because fuck you, that’s why.
Saturation.
Playing music is fun. I’ve been doing it since I was a child. I’ve been in bands, I’ve booked shows, I’ve recorded plenty of music.
Aside from my awesome son, music is my life.
I can’t see myself giving up on music, but man, things are starting to look really bleak in today’s music “scene”. I’m in west michigan, but I’m quite certain this applies to the scene as a whole. I love playing my heart out on a stage, whether it be in front of 5 or 500. The problem is, so do a lot of other people. These days, bands are lining up to play for shady promoters with a pay to play mentality. There are so many “bands” (I won’t even get started on “bands” right now, I’ll save that for another post) out there that no matter how many times a shitty venue or promoter fucks a band over, there are 100 more waiting to play. We’re letting these people and places win. This has to stop. There are people making waves and stirring up the pot to try and get this issue resolved, but the truth is, this will always be an issue as long as the over saturated pool of bands continues to not respect themselves, or the music they are playing.
I don’t give a shit if anyone ever reads this, it just like to get things off my chest.
next vent topic: why I play music…
December 2005, the band I was playing in was offered a show at this venue in Tampa called The Masquerade. It was the venue in Tampa. I saw all my idols there growing up. Slayer, Down, Superjoint Ritual, Fear Factory, Cannibal Corpse, GWAR, Clutch, Lamb of God, Machine Head, Amon Amarth, Vader,…
Lies
People piss me off. Lying is one of the most selfish things you can do. Before I go further, I must admit, I have told a lie, several of them in fact. When I lie, I feel guilty and then end up confessing my untruthfulness, asking for forgiveness, and moving on attempting to learn from my mistakes. There is however, a different type of liar, one who never stops. These people have the innate ability to create a world around them that is essentially one big falsification of the real world. Their reality becomes so skewed due to the fact that they lie so often that they even get themselves to believe their own bullshit. Lying to get what you want or to make yourself feel better is quite counter-intuitive to living life as a respectable human being, you will be found out. My goal for the rest of my life is to be an honest man full of integrity. Stop lying, start living.
